Ya ya. I shouldn't shirk from my work or studies. I wonder if I am socially inept. Or perhaps superiors inept. I can't stand the fact that I am being ordered around to do things by other people who have the power and authority even if they don't mean it. In front of them, I just got to reinvent myself as someone who is hardworking and a happy-go-lucky guy so I won't offend them. I just not adept with dealing with people who are not of the the same level as me =X
Today was another typical slacking day of mine. I do like someone to regale me with their life, tell me something interesting in the world so I won't feel so lifeless. Practicing guitar, reading and jogging. Not forgetting daydreaming or (lost in reverie) like I always do. But most of the time, when people are talking to me, I'll just stare absently at the tv or something and nothing they say goes inside my brain.
Had been thinking about jc life these few days and felt rather wistful. Instead of studying like I should be, i'm intrigued by these which are useless e.g. how to get to far east from the mrt. Yup. Until now I am clueless about it. I thought earnestly and realize that I've wasted so many precious time in jc.
Kaplan or sim? Thinking about this just bewilder me. I have no idea what to do. No idea how to extricate myself from this situation. Kaplan offers something that I want to study (tourism) but it seems unreliable as I can't contact the person in-charge. Sim offers something that is general but I am not that interested in. 3more months to make the decision.
Yup. I'm grouchy. Every single small thing can annoy me. I'm devoid of patience and the heart to forgive. Often I'm inwardly annoyed about people but to maintain good relationships, just got to act blur and forget. No one wants to embroil in lengthy cold war between friends cause it'll just get awkward over time. In hindsight, it would have been better to keep quiet and hoping your brain will delete that piece of memory away. Listen to their excuses stoically and pretend that you are not pissed.
I'm appalled by the way life works. How some people are able to carry on their life and taking things easily. I'm always too uptight about things and make myself unhappy. haiz.
