It has become harder and harder for me to express myself in front of other people. Most of the time, I'll prefer to act as if I am happy, crazy and carefree person so that people wont't ask about why do I look so distracted or sad. Because I can't give them a proper answer. Most of the time is cause I am scare of the way they will view me after I tell them how I feel. Sometimes is cause my source of unhappiness comes from them.