I can't take it seriously. I don't see why I can't choose my religion or choose not to have a religion. I am born to a Buddhist family but does that mean that i have to be a Buddhist? Does it work the same way that I am born to a family of doctors so I have to be a doctor? Where is the logic?
Note: I am not trying to say that Buddhist is a bad religion or any religion is bad or whatsoever. Just why when I say that I don't want to be a Buddhist and wants to be a free-thinker, my parents would give me the 'Are you crazy?' face. To those who thinks I'm an atheist (an atheist is someone who believes that God does not exist), I'm not cause I do believe that gods, goddess, deities, ghosts do exist.
Why do I choose to not have a religion is cause I don't practice their faith so why do I fool myself by pretending to be someone with a religion by like going to the church every 4mths or perhaps going to the temple/pray before I have an exam or going overseas? Isn't that just trying to fool the Gods and deities; directly showing that I am scare and need some 'help' so I practice their faith for 1 min or so so they will help me for that particular event and then, I'll ask for their 'help' again when I need it. To me, it is simple shameless. I mean think of it this way, I need money so I find A. When I don't have any trouble, I treat A as nobody and don't bother to say 'hello' to A. Is that fair?
I just feel like I do have the right to choose what I want to be and also what I believe in or practice (or not want to believe in or practice). I flare up when my mom wants me to take over my dad's company cause I feel like HELLO? We're living in the 21st century where black can be president and homos can now get married. So why the hell am I still being treated like in the past, where if my dad is the emperor, I will become the emperor. Madness. I was so pissed that I purposely don't want to take physics in jc (so I will know nothing about my dad's job). Also flunking my econs (not on purpose la -.-")
He wants me to go to temple to bai bai tml since we're going japan next week. When I told him I don't want to go, he just give the since you free just go. Seriously, I should have lied. I'm just gonna don't care and do what they do. I won't bother to wear proper clothes. I'll go in sch shirt and sch shorts, get myself dirty then come back to bath. I can't stand the smoke for hell sake.
I simply can't drill the fact that I am not gonna be a Buddhist no matter how they influence me with all those Buddhist stuff. Call me lazy cause I don't see the point of burning so much paper (with cost money, REAL USABLE MONEY), its like burning our money away. Pissed me off damn lot.
